Individualism v. Community

As I’m figuring out what I want to do with my life, part of what gets me stuck is guilt. In an individualistic, capitalist society, I’m encouraged to turn my hobbies into side hustles. To find a way to monetize what I do. To dedicate hours of spare time, to get where I need to be. And I reject the desire to be a producer for this system. I choose to accept that the pull to be productive all the fucking time is a symptom of this kind of system. I also need to balance that with the fact that when we lived in more communal spaces, there were trades people. There was exchange and cooperation. Maybe what I’m doing can be in contrary to capitalism and for the pursuit of building community. I don’t need to become a millionaire and grow and scale and stretch, but if I could be sustained by what I am doing, isn’t that enough?